A long lost post !

WRITING IS A SOCIALLY ACCEPTABLE FORM OF SCHIZOPHRENIA – E L DOCTOROW

A pretty positive statement that would motivate any amateurs !!
Anyways.. talking about something i really wanted to talk about for a long time.. I really hate most of the supplements that a certain newspaper offers because I don’t think that it gives any information that a common Indian citizen would know or want to know about. Yes, there could be people who might relentlessly follow whatever comes in as a breather of fresh air to their knowledge ( about ?? Lesbians, transvestites, or homosexuals around the world..! What on earth …!!! ) I am not against any of those people but with due respect I’d like to state that instead of helping create a goddamn awareness about their rights and their lifestyle, this particular newspaper publishes oodles of irrelevant pictures with some crap written about it. I still wonder… what on earth !!

Its 4 o clock and dark like hell when I am writing this, I am also very much aware of the fact that I haven’t had my lunch, that I am hungry , that I have a pretty bad head ache probably because I didn’t eat.. but still I just don’t feel like eating… I mean that’s such a laborious task ! seriously, my aim of crossing a 45 KG is a distant dream..if I go like this…

Its about to rain, I could see the coconut trees dancing on the state of its imbalance… the palm leaves wavering…. The sound of thunder ! Magestic !! Raindrops on the dried up leaves … romance on the hair on your skin,Its amazing, they just completely go vertical! And when you listen to the music of sleep away and maid with the flaxen hair…. Especially sleep away I must say… it becomes all the more beautiful!

A really close friend of mine calls me up and we talk for about an hour.. He asks me about my internship.. like, whats the latest update. He has been seeing the pretty screwed up situation that I've been facing since last two weeks.. He calls me up most of the days from his office and enquires. And I have lots of complaints. Today he calls me up and I told him that I am seriously sick of people asking me the same question over and over again! The call got cut in between because there was a range problem ( why.. why god why ??!! Aren’t there enough towers !! ) He calls me up again and then when he talked, he had changed the subject already.. he was asking me, which movie is on asianet and surya? I said I don’t know and laughed.. he said why don’t you give some importance to those things (like mohanlal and mammotty movies on channels) instead of dwelling in the insecurities of not getting an internship confirmed…? I understood that he was trying to kind of console me and all… but I was in no mood to get consoled! Although I listened… He talked about living a hippie life and all… God… a hippie life … and who’s saying that ? A guy who doesn’t drink, smoke, doesn’t have a girl friend, has a well paid job at a reputed software firm.. ! Very interesting ! Irony of life!

Thats all for now !


PS: This was written a long time back when I was sitting at home confused ! And I hate not having WI FI at home.. I like DC better.. I could write anytime anywhere !

I believe there's no title !

I read somewhere .. how important it is in life.. not necessarily to be strong but to feel strong ...

Courtesy : Into  the Wild 

Rain

I remember myself changing my orkut caption to 'Love, mist and rain ' when i first joined DC and came to Vagamon in june... Rain was an everyday affair then... the day started with rain and ended with rain.. at night i could sleep peacefully with the sound of raindrops in the background... and one night when i was very happy listening to the rain , i remember sending a message to kuttan - " Like beautiful imaginary pearls falling on a tin roof.. sound of rain ! :-) "
Well... i love everything about the rain... starting from the growling atmosphere... darkening clouds.. grey... brimming with love... the first rain drops instigating that beautiful fragrance of earth... the lightning accompanied by thunder bolts... the whole thing excites me like none other !
I think that rain is the most beautiful gift that nature has ever given us ! Rain is one thing that inspires.. its the one thing that brings immense joy... Rain is that little pleasure trip that would take us of our tensions and sorrows... and let us be one with nature ! And when one is so close to nature , one feels happy ! May be thats why Lord Byron came up with this poem...

There is a pleasure in the pathless woods,
There is rapture on the lonely shore,
There is society where none intrudes,
By the deep sea , and music in its roar,
I love not man the less, but nature more,
From these our interviews from which i steal
From all i may be , or have been before,
To mingle with the universe and feel
What i can never express , yet cannot all conceal.

And rain... in all its essence and beauty .... plays along... drops from the tip of a leaf... mingles with the depth of meandering rivers.... flows through our eyes down the cheeks.... ferments love....
gives meaning to what life is ... and finally , what i told about rain to kuttan.. that rain is simply..... esoteric !

Stories in short !

My Bday was a disaster.. i was really lookin forward to celebrating it but my intution pointed towards me celebrating a dry Bday ...! i mean not the dry day kind but a plain , not so entertaining Bday ! I came all dressed up and pretty ( i guess so, lol ! ) and wearing a new churidhar instead of wearing the usual T and jean kinda stuff was absolutely necessary this time so that it would mean i would look more mature and lady like ! i should 'erase' the tomboyish looks of mine.. and go for ultra feminine looks i guess ! :-) lol ! Anyways.. wrote 3 beautiful exams on my Bday from noon to night in which i have performed wonderfully.. so much so that the respective faculty who corrects it would quiver with bliss!!! :-/
So, the next day of my Bday .. that is April 7th was mom and dads wedding anniversary and somehow we could celebrate it at home.. just the five of us !
Met salini, after a really long time... at the Indian Coffee house again.. but couldnt spend much time as she had to rush to her class! I wasnt that happy ! We usually hang out for longer time periods.. in and around statue... ! Miss those times! I hopped into a bus from statue and got down at pattom.. walked home from there all alone in the rain.. felt good !
I saw this most primitive episodes of friends and had this intense urge to meet my friends.. thats how i planned this meeting at ICH , statue where salini and i met....
Messaged kani too but she didnt respond... saw her in 'kerala cafe' and i thought that her old beautiful face had vanished! She had grown a lot thinner i guess.. atleast her face did!
And im in this 'state of being' where i just wanna run away from the crowd.. probably its claustrophobia....! Wish i could go to kodungallur and spend sometime with appooppan and ammoomma and also see my newborn cousin 'anashwar' and my newborn nephew 'no name yet' .. Mini mema wanted a son and she got one ! she's happy ! But kavitha chechi wanted a daughter so badly but she delivered a baby boy on april 8th ! She might not be happy but i am coz he's born into the first of sun signs and my all time favourite 'Aries' ! :-) everybody loves their own sun signs right? well, i do !

NB: Above short stories have no link at all ! This might be called 'A random writing' which happens when you dont have a focus on what actually you have to write upon !

The 10th International DC Book Fair, Cochin !

Well... It was an experience in itself ! As PGDM students i guess we are lucky to have a lot of exposure. Something like OJTs in call centres...  Like before we hit the floor, we get this intense On the job training... which is like hell actually... and if the process is Dell , you dont have much to say but to bear ! 

Yeah so talking about DC Bookfair... first of all.. im happy to have lived in between a billion books for 12 days continuously !! Got to learn a lot of names.... of publishing houses... and of the lot i liked springer the most, for the sound of it and the price!! Phew!  

Another amazing thing was a chance to give a gift from the side of DC to Mr.Om puri... what an amazing feeling... ! And Mammootty ! Oh... being a die hard fan of his... i couldnt stop smiling ... him sitting next to Om puri...

Lunch was bad for the first few days.. stay at YMCA cochin was good... the team Udaips ( Ancy, Iti, Rakhi, Soumya, Surya , myself and teseena) stayed in one room... 6 beds ! The food at Golden fork restaurant downstairs was heavenly... loved it !! And the prices were also heavenly .. lol :) 

The main constraint standing at the stalls was this horrible pain in our legs... everybody went through it... we could sit for sometime if it became unbearable... 

My stall was the DC Academics along with Lijo, Mammen and Shijin...

It was good... I stood for a day and half at Harper Collins too because Ancy took an off.. H and C was good too... I met Ed and Lynne kirwin because of that .. Friendship for life! :)

I liked most of the DC staff .. they were very professional and very supportive.. I loved wishing everyone in the morning ! I would walk around the whole floor and wish everyone.. and teseena would comment.. are you the floor manager ??! 

On the last day, when everybody was saying goodbye and all they said that we were an amazing bunch.. and that our seniors who came last year for the Book fair a horrible lot ! Whether it was true or not we were happy to hear this ! 

All of us bought books... many of my classmates bought Chetan Bhagat! Chetan Bhagat for christs sake ??!! I just read one book of his and that was the end of it ! I became a hardcore Chetan Bhagat hater from then!

I bought three books - Polanski ( Autobiography of Roman Polanski.. the rascal genius !) The Catcher in the Rye ( Which i always wanted to buy and finally did ! ) and Madhavikutty's Diarykurippukal... :) I was happy that i bought all these books but if i had more money i could have bought some more... out of the last 800 rs of salary remaining .. i  got just 200.. the rest went for the books.... ! Poor me !

The worst part about the DC Book fair was writing a case on it ... we had to include everything of what happened during these 12 days, incorporate it with what we have learned in the classrooms and submit it... Everyone's case rather looked like a report..! Well.. atleast im sure, mine did! 

Anyways thats all about the 10th International DC book fair !

Recovering from my newyear blog disaster !!

Such an amazing feeling having found a post that i thought i'd missed !!!

My "newyear" post... i kinda lost it on 31st... i mean, i checked it in the drafts then and there but it wasn't present actually ! 

But today ... i saw, there it was ! In the drafts.... So i published it.. the last post of 2009!

What a feeling... having found something that you thought was lost....

Im soooo happy !  I hate Blog post disasters !!!  I wish this never happened to me again ! :)